My Story..... Twisted Words

It all started on Christmas eve of 93',the conversation seems all so meaningful and nice. That night after a very long talk,we decided that the time is right for us to be together. All the experiences that we have gone thru individually made us think that what supposed to be would really meant to be. Can't believe that from someone so random that we'v managed to be bestfrens then its actually proceeding to be a couple. Must admit that it felt happy to be together again. So here we are, being together and having it as our lil secret. 

Well,the secret was short lived as we were together for almost a week without anyone knowing and then finally its about time for us to meet up. Knowing the nature of my job and the people that are my colleagues,there's no way that its gonna be a good surprise for them. Especially towards the 'sister' that I have. She's been having major crush on him for as long as I could remember. I know that I can't just break the news to her instantly. So,I did what I did,you can call me names for all you want after reading about what I did but at that point of time,I really didn't have any regrets at all. I took one fine day to be breaking the news to her then,told her about how me and beau got to contact each other again. She was indeed surprised that the phonecall happened. The only part that I purposely left out was the part that we'v been together again eversince then. With a lil white lie,I told her that he's been asking about her too when she started to ask me if he knows about her existence. There came all the good reviews about him... About how good a guy he is,about he is being a nice guy and all... For a moment there,I almost believed that she had meant all those words...haha... 

These nice and flowery words about him lingers on at work for almost 3 days. She even kept praising him of his gentlemanly ways when they used to hang out in a group... Why 3 days? Well,that is because,he'd be finally be fetching me from work then.. Yup...meeting everyone up close that night... On that very day itself,the moment when I saw her at work,I summed up my courage and tell her everything... Everything,from the very day I made that call till the day that I was standing right in front of her. And to my surprised,words change !!! From the 'Nice' person he is,he became the 'playa' type... She started rambling about how I shouldn't be with him,how he likes to break a woman's heart,how notorious he could be and that I'd regret being with him....so on and so forth...  Really nothing beats the way when a woman is scorned.....

My Story....Facade??

As the story goes, finally I'v contacted him. Its such a relief to be hearing from him again. The all familiar voice,the talks and everything. There's definitely a lot of catching up for us. All the past that we had with each other was instantly forgotten. Told him about Gary's demise and he told me about his NS life and his break up with a girl whom he nearly got engaged to. Ya..we do have our own history together.. Never really a bad one but indeed something that I find unique. Maybe,you could just say that I'm just a bad boy magnet. Hahaha...funny indeed.... Well there's a reason for me to be saying this actually.. Met him during one of those event outings that I had with my frens a few years back.. Its the countdown to the New Year to be precised. He was the sort of boys whose cute looking..  I myself was not really a looker then. Had a short fling with him till one day we decoded that we still want to experience life,we still wants to enjoy our teens and its definitely not the time for commitments yet. So we parted and become best frens. That's when he started being high from drinking and drugs of all sorts. And he starts dating girls after girls whom of which are in a circle of my frens. I know...its weird to be seeing an ex beau with other girls and still be on good terms with him. But that's the uniqueness of it all. The understandings that we possessed between one another. He's not the only one dating tho,for a fact that I'm doing it too but when it comes to our nightly chats on the phone,nothing about our rendezvous would ever emerge. We'd just talk with comfort and laughters everynight.

This time round,the conversation is definitely different. We seems to miss each other so badly. Then finally,after nearly 3 hours of talk,he finally confesses to still be holding the flames for me. Even tho I'm skeptical,the sense of happiness was there. To think that a failed relationship,being a witness to his flamboyant ways and losing contact for quite sometimes would still have him harboring those feelings for me. As for me,all I wanted to do is to get on with life. Not to forget Gary but just having to move on. The mind just needed a rebound guy. And he seems perfect coz I know that he won't hurt me,I know that he cares for me but what I didn't know and never could predict after so many years later was that he's the biggest mistake of my entire life and existence. At that point of time,all I did see was that he's my knight in shinning armor. 

After so much thinking,being bestfrens and all,on that fateful morning we decided to be together this time. To be special towards each other since we already knew and accepts each of our own colorful background and experiences. The happiest moment indeed. A win win situation for me. To have a rebound guy who understands me fully,knows me personally and accept me for who I am. A person whom of which everyone is familiar with. Even my family knew him. But little do I know the hard truth to it all.... It's all a facade,a beginning indeed....

A Lil Something...

Well...before I even attempt to continue with my story writing,Let me tell You a lil something about myself.....

I may not be a perfect person with a good command of English.. I wrote what I feel,What I experience and how I see things the way it is.. Yes My Story is about me...My Life.... Might not be interesting but I've lived it..The so-called Love-Hate relationship I had with my life..

I don't like to be judged and neither do I want to judge. I'm being frank and honest coz I dare.. I dare to admit the mistakes in my life and I dare to just be verbally honest about it. And if being brave and open to it is so called STUPID,then those who judge only after knowing the partial truth are IDIOTs.. 

My Story hasn't end,It has just begun.......