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The days just went by me so sadly.. I couldn't get over the facts that Gary has left me for good.. Left the world and left the living behind. The days was just spent with me crying and mourning of my loss. Friends around me was concerned but in the same time,as hard as they tried,I just couldn't stop all the crying. A week later,one of Gary's best buddy actually came by the house to do a check on me. He was shocked to see me in that state of sadness. His visit is with a purpose. That day,from him,there are definitely something about the late Gary was unveiled. Eventho it was a shocking news to me, I do appreciates the visit. His piece of news calmed me down a lot. Even he was surprise at it.

It was early in the morning when Bunns appeared at my door. I was so depressed by Gary's passing that I didn't even bother to do anything but just to weep and cry a lot.. Everything that I see around me reminds me so much of Gary. And everytime the thoughts comes across me,I'd just weep and weep uncontrollably. Lets just say that Bunns acted as a messenger to me. Apparently,seeing my bad shape,he finally broke down and told me everything that he have had conversations with Gary from the day we broke off till his very last day on earth. Its true that Gary hasn't been himself much of late. He kept talking about death to his friends and family as if death is an old friend that is coming to visit him. He kept saying that its never gonna be fair for me if he'd have died before he end things with me. Being a good friend,Bunns was always there to keep his head leveled. He noticed Gary's changes more visibly during the week of the break up, hence he sat Gary down and talked about things to Gary. He was shocked to hear that we have actually broken up for no reasons at all. He had given Gary advises that had finally made Gary change his mind. Eventually in the whole conversations,I finally knew why Gary had came back.... He had wanted a reconciliation with me. That night itself,for once he doesn't want to believe that his time was near. He had wanted to start over,anew and afresh with me. He really does misses me a lot. Bunns was the person who had personally sent him home to my place. Leaving his friend at the carpark nearby without having a doubt that Gary would finally see me that night. He had really thought that things would turn out well for us again till later that night when he saw me fetching Gary's elder brother and hearing the shocking news. Honestly,whatever he had told me had given me a slight happiness. I now knew that the love he had for me was all along there till the day he died. Now that to me meant true love but too bad that destiny and fate decides to play a cruel joke on us.

But still,my life changed forever.... Not only that I've heard the good news,I was also told of a bad news. Well,knowing that Gary was indeed a 'SomeOne' of some sort. I wasn't going to be spared.. Not by his family nor close friends but by the gang members that used to lead by him (Gary). Bunns did tried to explain things to them about the whole situations but it just seems to opposed by them. They had insisted that Gary's fall was caused by me pushing him down and never a mishap to begin with. Now...I was being head hunted by them. Lucky for me,the place where I stayed was being revealed by both Bunns,Mac or any one of them that was present that night. They knew that I wasn't at fault and I wasn't even in the house when the whole incident took place, In fact they knew the culprit and are dealing it with her on their own.. Ironically,bothe the good and the bad news had made me feel rather blessed.. And I for once had to prove myself to Gary ( I believed that his soul is still aroun to see ) that I am indeed a stronger person who would be able to handle those shit of situations.....