3rd time is a charm,that's what people would always mentioned. So there goes my 3rd year in school.. I'm so used to the life that I'v been leading so far. Not only that,I'v also grown up from the pre puberty and adolescence years. I do look mature for a 15 yrs old then. I'd always be able to enter clubs and pubs without even having to show my Identity Card. Anyway,that is not all that has been changing for me. I begin to know how about the attraction of the opposite gender. Before all these,I just thought that relationships are just about being able to get along with the opposite gender. I also thought that it's just about the physical attractions. I do go on with so called 'relationships' initially but all just didn't last. You could say that the feel just wasn't there yet.. Puppy love,monkey love or just plainly whatever love that people are just referring it to be. At that point of time,all of these 'ships' with laden would just happen in my so called 'adult' life outside school. I'm happy maintaining it that way.. Just hated the thoughts of having partners in a place where I studied and became a child..
Clubbing and outside school curriculum works different for me. Honestly,out of the 2 yrs of knowing people from outside of my study circle,I did get to know a few guys along the way.. Each guys has their own pros and cons to it. I learnt about patience,,sensuality,loyalty, possessiveness,wealth and obsessions. None of them ever taught me Love itself... I failed to feel it for them,they to me are just clouds that happens to drift by the blowing of the wind. Yes...Its true that I'm having fun by all the attentions that I'v got. It's sort of making me feel wanted and important at times but in a way,it also always brings troubles for me. At one moment, I could be enjoying free drinks in club due to the attention I'v got and at another moment I'd be stalked when on my way home.Those things didn't scare me at all tho.. The area that I was staying apparently is very safe itself as everyone would know everyone else.. I'd always feel so protected.. Hahaha..
All those changed after I met Gary.... A local guy of mixed descendants, Very nice and loving guy indeed.. As a matter of fact,he has helped me get out of a previous relationship where I'd literally feel as if I was under supervision 24/7. With Gary,its very different... I was allowed freedom as long as I know not to cross the line between me and other guy frens.. He's protective,loving,honest and he have full trust in me. The thing is,he's about 7 years older than I am... Even tho he's not a super hunky person,his personality and character is enough to qualify him as the sweet and candy of my eyes... The amount of honesty that he gave me is beyond words.. The sense of securities itself is so empowering.. The respect that he showed towards me and my family is something that no one would ever expect of him. Such a gentleman by nature but only I'd see that cause to others,he's just the ruffian that people feared... But the ruffian taught me Love....
With his curly hair,sharp nose and big eyes,Gary could easily passed off as a latino.. Plus,he plays the guitar very well and often would serenade me with the songs that he played.. His sweet gentle look often gives people the impressions that he could easily be fooled... But who's the real fool then?Only those that knows him well knows it... Only those closest to him would know that... He is after all,the real deal in the secret society at that point of time. His involvements with them are never hidden from me. I knew very well of his activities... But I'm never got scared of that... In fact,I felt protected always... Being with him just gives a whole new meaning to life... Being with him,not only do I learnt about Love but I also learnt about the responsibilities towards one's partner.. The only negative thing about him is that,he believed too much about fate readings,palm readings and predictions.. I'm always so afraid to lose a good guy like him. I'll always try my best in making him forget all those nonsense that he's been believing in.. If he's known to be a pillar to me,I'd considered to be his blanket..
Its been a year since I'm with him then.. Life was kindda blissful and happy with us occasionally having those little arguments as normal couples would be. I grew up more in character just by having him close to my heart..That year,I'm gonna turn 16 and he's gonna turn 23 years old.. Its the year that he believed that's gonna be his last.. Everytime he talks about the fateful palm reading moment and that will always be the time that I'd convinced him that we as humans would never be able to know when our time on earth would end. I strongly refused to think that the predictions would happen that year...Not at all or even the slightest similarity of it.....
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